It shouldn't be God under that. It should be a 5 letter name! Not because you went through tough times because of them. But because they never meant to stand for you. Because they let everyone insult you & they stood there watching!
Hard to do for someone who over-analyzes EVERYTHING! But its important to get this straight in your head. You can move past the surface and try to understand the deeper workings of someone elses actions when you take yourself out of the equation.