I grew up feeling this way. Still feel this way many days, but my depression cannot keep me down. I fight every. I wish for things to be easy, to be strong, and sometimes it's impossible. Sometimes I just can't.
I'm exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel. I'm truly trying to forgive and let go. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of crying. I know I'm enough. I just have to reiterate that dialogue internally and focus on the good.
I'm tired of trying to be important in the lives of those who mean more to ME than life itself. Tired of not meeting their expectations. Tired of the behaviors they display on purpose with the intentions of hurting, upsetting &/or getting me back. I've finally opened my eyes to the real them, their loyalties & their "conditional love." They have shown me their true colors & just how .Such they truly don't care as much as they claim they do cuz actions speak louder than words. I'm tired of…
There's a point in your life when you get tired of fixing everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you finally decide to quit, it's Not giving up. It's realizing you don't need certain people and the BS they bring into your life .