Every person and group of people associated with the old testament evil entity thought of as "god" ends up receiving evil and torture in one way or another. Is anyone seeing this very clear pattern yet?
You need someone who shares your core beliefs and what is important to you, but you need someone who has a different personality type. That's why, for example, INTJ-ENFP is considered the "ideal match.
I once had this dream in which I was so happy. I was so happy and everything felt great inside of me. When I woke up, I cried and cried because I hated the reality of my actual life. Thankfully, I haven't experienced that again since I left my abuser.