You'll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine. Maybe adding a daily habit of more love with your child might make a positive change for both of you.
A successful woman is one who can build a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at her.<<<< this makes me think of the lyrics to New Romantics by Taylor Swift, "cause baby i could build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me"
There's no point in consistently worrying about everything. What will happen will happen regardless. So breath, look on the bright side. Have some laughs, fall in love, accept what you can't change, and carry on. To actually live is courageous.