Many different things can cause depression and each leaves its own mark; understand that you are human and need to address the things that happen to you in order to maintain a healthy state of mind. Life throws all kinds of things at
I have a problem where I just.push people away,to the point where I ignore texts and calls and I sit alone at night,wondering why I'm doing it and how I can stop it,but something inside me won't let me
If you really loved me like you said you did, you wouldn't be in the position to have to choose someone anyways. Since your struggling to make a decision allow me to make it easy for you, pick her cause with real love you wouldn't need a choice.